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I'm ready for a boring New Years eve. I never like how crowded it gets because of transportation and the cold. Boring is good. Hope to watch the ball drop on TV by midnight.
Sister needs to go to the Met Museum for a school project. We haven't had the chance to head back. I'm hoping it's not as big as the one I had years ago. That was one hell of a monster report about art.
Ehhhh, maybe big sister can help her cheat. >_> What? I'm bored and it's art.
One of those days where I tell myself, I should take a nap, then wake up 12 hours later. Not feeling so awesome. I woke up after a nightmare. It was a silly one, that demons were dragging me under the bed. O.o
My surgery is on the 14th of next year. They said it might leave a scar or indentation. Then they will test it for what he said was a "1 percent chance of cancer, not likely."
Nothing to worry about. He asked if I had any questions, "Will it hurt?"
'For a day."
._. I should be able to walk and whatnot afterwards. In and out in that one day.
Two way road. On the same downward path. I can't wait for when things will get better, for now, I "try".
I try to make people happy. I try to find a job, I try to help out. Guilt.
Resentment, when others have it so well. Nothing but the best for them! Easily doing whatever they feel like. Bitterness isn't all that bad, nor is guilt. Guilt can turn me positive. Anger of inner passion from seeing how well people are, it's tricky. Mixed feelings of sorrow and pushing myself forward.
Not to prattle on about my day, I'd say the amusing thing that happened to me was when I was shopping at Trader Joe's. I love that super market. Got myself smoked gouda and chocolate cheddar cheese. Also some ginger beer, crackers and humus.
Tasted their sample of the day, then realized I was missing something. o_o Touched my tongue up to the roof of my mouth. Ut-oh, I only felt one ball in. D:
The bar and ball were still in my mouth, thank god. I stuck the bar back in right away. I have a fear of my tongue holes closing if nothing is in. Spit out the ball, walked outside and used my compact mirror to stick it back on. I couldn't hold it still, at all. Left my bottom ball twisted half on and took the bus home.
Bus ride was long. Lots of traffic and moody people. A few roads were cool. Cobble stones lead to a bumpy ride. xD
When I arrived home, I unscrewed and reapplied my ball to bar, then felt better.
Heading back to the doctor's tomorrow evening. Going to get my MRI results back. See what happens from there. Not worried, because whatever the news is, will wait for another day.
(Hey, if it's bad news, whatever, let the world end on the 21st, lol! One less thing to care about. jk)
A few people asked how I was when I had taken the MRI. "Didn't the injection make you feel as if you were on fire?"
Nope, not at all. o.O Weird. Never knew the injection was supposed to make people feel a burning sensation.
Talk about being a cold hearted bitch, I really felt nothing. xD
Had an argument today because an old lady thought it was funny to start shit on the bus. The amount of people who say rude things about other's in wheel chairs is unbelievable.
I told her to stop her shit, she kept on yelling nonsense. Then she said "You have no life", "If I looked like that, I'd kill myself". Saying that to me, not the wheel chair person. I was defending the chair.
I LOL'd so hard. She's so old. Her come backs were that of an internet person. o.O lol *I* have no life? Old woman has such a life that she picks on people in wheel chairs and expects them to sit there and take it while she's so old, she'll die before me.
Pftt. Bring it bitch. I'm in no mood. She finally walked off saying she's a nurse and takes care of people daily. :| If she were my nurse, I'd report such a disrespectful person.
The day got a little lighter as we went home on another bus. This little kid was going to kick her seat. I stood behind the chair and let the kid kick me. Yes, I got my ass kicked by a kiddie. Hehehe. Kid was cute, shouting poopiehead to his mom. xD
Fun over load. x_x We went out even though it was raining, yesterday. I ate waaay too much oily food and my tummy isn't so happy after. lol I slept like a rock. Stuffed with good junk foods and happy = yay!
Now I've gotta run more errands this week and take care of my health. Test results from the MRI should be in by Tuesday.
I'm only stressed because I thought I could change things. I expected more out of them. Now I know that it doesn't hurt to be selfish, when they don't care about my feelings.
Overly need to store my stress somewhere else. It's hard to explain. Personal issues have a small level of respect in them, still.
That turned out better than I thought it would. By the time I had gotten to a Pharmacy to fill the prescription I needed, they told me the doctor had written a mistake in the date and that the only way to fill it now would be to call and confirm it. I was pissy for a minute, not because I wanted the damned stuff, but because I hate waiting/screwing around for stuff. If I wasn't going to get it, then oh well, I didn't need to be there. I didn't need the meds.
Didn't excuse the fact that I was stressed. The others were hungry, so they went for Chinese. The place they went to smelled like fish. Ugh, irritating. I was a little bitch and walked out saying I wanted a box of Popeye's fries all for myself. lol Stuffed my face and by the time I checked in, I didn't feel so bad anymore.
Till they called me in. -_o
I waited a bit. Thinking of the doom awaiting me. Hah, only to find out that they didn't even make me change. The put the camera on my knee, said to lay still and there would be noise. They gave me ear plugs and started to roll me in the machine... I hesitated. Moving my arm up. She said it would be okay and told me to put my hands on my belly. I thought, great, my underwire and face will be ripped up any minute now, right? >_> Wrong. Nothing happened. An odd noise started. First thought that came to mind was that, "This sounds like dubstep hell." Lol I smirked, bit my tongue so I'd be serious and not move, then almost fell asleep.
She stopped in the middle, saying my doctor ordered an injection. D: What?! I didn't know I'd be stuck with a needle!
I asked where she'd be sticking me. She said the arm. I was all chill then, cause needles in the arm are nothing. :P
Woo. That wasn't so hard.
When I came home my day got even better. :) Apparently a contest I entered last July, on my birthday, for the Brooklyn based AriZona iced tea company sent anyone who entered and lost, a T-shirt. Haha! :) That was a nice surprise. They're a year younger than me.
Why I thought watching a horror movie today was a good idea is beyond me. lol
God reading articles on MRI stuff. I'm more nervous than I should be. The doctor said I'd be able to keep my metal in with the one I'm going to, but I'm not so sure, man. :x
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